King Lear (JLG), 2025

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French Onion Soup (Soupe à l’Oignon), 2025

 la mémé French onion soup, Rosekm Air Humidifiers, extension lead

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19.08.25

 

19.08.25

Claremont Square listen again 

strange bran-daps soaks

criss cross it’s free even laterally

& cleaner mostly unconfessed

go on pavements city, cancer, weeds 

ah beautiful sky the question of what's outside

your window could be less

interesting than this

you draw the shade on the world

the more you lose 

the more you have to gain

secret parts pushed

skull-chips oatmeal growth

institutions feeding cells

V-effekt under your foreskin 

jettison reform congenitally

dark ambience clear-view chalk on light 

i dont believe in anything anymore

i have the faith of two ghosts

forming into one oratio recta

there is no bedrock to terrible things happening

imagine something bad now a little worse 

make it children

18.08.25 (again)

 

 18.08.25

It is myself I have never met, 

face pasted on the underside 

of my sleepless night of Rorschachs

unstuck the objects i do not own

whose floor shifts ten thousand utensils   

it is beautiful but it is still 

not mine insects in a glass case 

porcelain in palsied hands  

a total worldview you have friends 

comprised a truth which 

no one ever utters 

in the crux of perceived life 

competition eating out 

itself be an old ghost weeping 

without name medication in the shape

of the evening carouser in the shape

body makes bent over, 

freeze dried extinguished faith 

cry a million times 

telepathy hope another succession 

after midnight tongs  silver eclipse

I pull from myself against 

the law of aggression 

Double-Entry terms

settle that account

18.08.25

 

18.08.25

It is myself I have never met, 

face pasted on the underside 

of my sleepless night of Rorschachs

unstuck the objects i do not own

whose floor shifts ten thousand utensils   

it is beautiful but it is still 

not mine insects in a glass case 

the porcelain in palsied hands  

a total worldview you have friends 

comprised a truth which 

no one ever utters 

in the crux of perceived life 

competition eating out 

itself life as I share without

name medication in the shape

of the evenings carouser 

the ghost phosphors in the shape

of the body stoles overheating 

in a swollen sky inside 

freeze dried extinguished faith 

be an old ghost weeping 

on a chair with a shelf of feeling 

cry a million times telepathy

hope another succession 

it’s after midnight almost, 

a day when all injustices are evened out

almost tongs I pull from myself 

against the wall the law of our aggression 

payment in what form?

Against Mother II (script for dramatic monologue) Rough Draft

Urban survival game

So it's just you, no kids, pets, partner. 

You're 35 and healthy no allergies. 

You have to devise a way of having the lowest budget possible

to feed yourself.

long evenings ... hours of darkness

... sudden urge to ...

nothing tiny little thing ... tiny

before its time ... 

godforsaken hole 

I have Anxiety because

I'm an over thinker

I lost my mum 

suddenly to Cancer. 

Sorry to hear that. 

Yes. Terrible. 

I am doing talking therapy 

because my doctor said this 

will probably 

just be my anxiety.. But... 

I have REAL pains. 

its a stabbing pain. Godforsaken hole.  

I'm going to list my pains 

&& 

if anyone could tell me 

if they have the same 

and/or they found out 

what it was please? 

Ok. 

I get pain 

then sometimes 

I have pain 

when I urinate 

in the morning especially 

the pain travels up to my lower 

left pelvic area. 

the buzzing? . no part of 

It usually hurts to sit down or walk 

its a stabbing pain. 

into my stomach 

and it used to be just sometimes 

under my left rib 

and the very bottom 

on the left side too 

but this is almost 

a constant pain now. 

Meant to be suffering ...

ha! ... thought to be suffering ...

just as ...

God (like a wretch) 

Then.

... (good laugh) ... 

I have lower back pain 

struggle to walk more 

and more as time goes on. 

have to shuffle before 

I can walk properly 

after sitting down. 

I get mucus in my stool 

sometimes feel like I have pressure 

like I need to do a 

exit but I dont. 

I have been referred to 

gynaecology 

gynaecologists 

ah! 

but they won't see my until I take contraceptive 

pill for 6 months. 

I am also soooooo tired 

even if I get a good 

night sleep. 

I did have 2 cesarean sections 

2 years in a row.  

It's the boiling frog scenario.

the buzzing? ... yes... 

all the time the buzzing  

as if in actual ...

agony ... 

but could not ... could not  all the time the buzzing ...

so-called ... in the ears ... 

(good laugh) 

Not sure if this is the right place to post as it's not an AIBU but more of I think my husband is being 

and I'm not sure 

what to do about it.  

though of course actually

 not in the ears at all ...

in the skull ….. 

He's getting caught up in some quite extreme right wing views. 

Complains about how they're coming in, 

being housed in hotels, I take

paid allowances etc. 

with no checks 

and how crime rates 

are 

are now ten fold etc. 

I am trying to decide between state and private school for my son. He has ADHD 

a slight speech delay. 

He is bright but finds big crowds more challenging 

goes into 'fight' (fight, flight, freeze) 

when scared. 

He is doing really well 

his main focus 

emotional regulation. 

What if they don’t do it in front of you 

but tell you about it later?  

Wondering if I’m overreacting to a situation …

Leave him.

its quite normal to move from the left in your twenties/thirties when you have all these ideals over towards the right 

as you become the ones 

paying for it all with your taxes. 

It’s fairly standard.

 something begging in the brain ... 

am I being unreasonable?

just all part of the same wish to ... 

I have known paedophile hunters' to have been injured when trapping their prey. 

That's avoidable. 

(Encountered in my professional capacity).  

not in the least ... twinge ... so far ... ha! ... 

so far ... this other thought then … not a ... 

oh long after ... …

I keep getting reels and short videos on Facebook and YouTube of these 'nonce stings'. 

I am a bit wary of them 

for a number of reasons.

  

Some of them are obviously fake 

done for 'comedy'. 

It seems a bit virtue signalling 

bullying on behalf of the 'hunters' 

(like the episodes of Luther with the vigilante who made online videos)

I often wonder what motivation these guys have. 

I would not be the slightest bit surprised

if some of them were paedophiles themselves. 

all silent but for the buzzing ...

so-called moving ... 

the buzzing ... so-called ...

in the ears  .. yes ...

all the time 

Videoing 

publishing seems to put them in the place of judge 

and jury and is often 

for self agrandisment.  

 so far ... then thinking ... oh long after... 

Let's be clear though, people 

who abuse children 

are execrable.  I need to do a 

exit but I dont. Is there a possibility of love.

... all the time buzzing …

. whole body 

(short pause) 5 seconds 

I am in Surrey

(pause again) 5 seconds 

I know an sen 'adult' 

was attacked by one of these groups. 

He was going to meet a girl for a tea party. 

It was obvious from the video 

he had no idea 

there was any malice 

in what he believed was happening. 

He said repeatedly they are going to have a picnic with tea and cake.  

The 'hunters' accused him of all sorts, he was so scared and confused. 

I taught him as a teen, 

this happened when he was 26, 

they made him out to be a predator 

and he thought 

he was going for a tea party.  

He took his teddy 

thought she would be bringing hers 

they would be playing together. 

All of this was twisted 

for the video. 

He should have 

24 hour care 

but actually got 

2 visits a day. 

The rest of the time 

he was left to his own devices.

Resources resource's 

 Not unusual to have help from the public....

in all areas 

I think all child sexual abusers 

should be exposed. 

SEN or not, if you've 

committed a crime, 

zero sympathy 

if it's live streamed 

on social media. 

They shouldn't sexually abuse kids then.  

 I need to do a 

exit but I dont. 

The police don't have the resources to keep up,

so the general public step in. step in.

.. all the time the buzzing ...

Someone's got to do something about it.

in the skull ... 

Fair play to them.

do we have a winner

for this one please ??  

make some sense of it ...

whole body like gone ...

just the mouth ...

lips ... cheeks ...

jaws ... never ... what?

... tongue? ...

yes ... lips ...

cheeks ... jaws ...

tongue ... never still a second ...

mouth on fire ...

stream of words

AIBU??